Day 56 (Christmas)

This morning I woke up with just the right mix of joy, self-satisfaction and desire.
I felt joy at the idea of Christmas and that feeling of everyone around you, all your neighbours, all the politicians and famous people, all feeling that same subtle sense of warmness and festive cheer to some degree. I also felt a sense of joy that I am able to wake from my bed, see that the sun is out, it isn’t as cold as other days and that I have an excuse to feel relaxed and rested. My sister is coming later to pick me up, so no need to rush or do anything.

However, it was that perfect mix of feeling relaxed and content that made me want to pick up my guitar and continue working on my recent acoustic songs. It was the same feeling that made me believe in my abilities, my potential: A realistic concept of my potential instead of the blurry, daydream version I hold onto when feeling insecure.

It’s this sense of having all I need and being comfortable in myself that motivates my creative side. I need to wake up with that feeling more often.

I wish it could be Christmas everyday…