Day 105

105 days, that's 15 weeks, which is 2520 hours.
Right now, it's approximately 151220 minutes sober... And counting.

It's handy that I have my calculator beside me, because looking at some figures I can see just how f**ked I am going to be for the following 30 days or so! Sigh.

Basically I didn't get very much work in January. Only 3 shifts in fact.
That means my pay this month is just about going to cover my rent.
This is just f**king ridiculous really. Obviously, I can't survive on so little hours from my current employer so I've started looking at alternatives and for the first time in about 12 years, benefits from DA GOVIMENT!

Stress.

Phoned around a few companies for work and so far I've not had anything too promising.

I know there's no real point moaning about it really, I'm just a bit feckin' stressed out right now and need to vent. On the bright side, a couple of things that might actually make a bit of money look like they could be panning out, but not for a wee while yet (another month or two). I have work this weekend and a long shift next weekend, which is good, but I can't put up with the stress of not knowing how much work I'm going to get, week by week, much longer.

And my porridge is now all cold, lumpy and bluergh...

CHOOSE LIFE KIDS!